Hello, friends.

Happy New Year.

I hope you have all had some time to rest, to ease back into yourselves, to rediscover the many ordinary extraordinaries that ground you, that bring you peace, joy, warmth. I hope you are still practicing, whatever kindness, patience, forgiveness you most need in this moment. Perhaps, trust. Perhaps, belief. Perhaps, emptiness.

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My first doctoral recital was centered on the words: hope and courage. I think this time around, it’s courage and acceptance.  It’s a personal, vulnerable deep-dive into some of my own darkest moments, and a testament to my growth from acknowledging those pasts.  This concert is about life and death. The dualities. Of suffering and hope. Grief and joy. The extraordinary intensity and dignity of the human pathos, transfused with pain. Courage. And acceptance. The demons that come back. The cyclical nature of pain and grief.”

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Dear my musicians colleagues, thank you for what you do.

Dear all the audiences, whether you came especially to support me or were just passing through and by some miraculous coincidence crossed paths with the music I humbly earnestly adore, revere, serve - thank you for listening. For connecting. For sharing your energy.

It does matter. Little huge moments. Simply bringing music of the highest calibre I can, on this day, to these public spaces. I’m so glad. I feel a part of the beautiful work that all my fellow artists do. To be me, also to be no one. Anonymous. Just music. Just one with the composers who wrote these pieces, and everyone else who has ever played, listened to, loved these notes.

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“A lot has happened.” As they say. I haven’t posted here since January, but I have been writing, everyday. I have been discovering all kinds of astonishing challenges, contradictions, blessings. I have grown. I have stalled. I have fulfilled all kinds of promises. Perhaps broken some, forgotten a few. Still learning. Still laughing-crying-derping. Eating cooking baking delicious things. Making music. Ya know.

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There’s a Chinese mantra that’s been engrained in me since childhood. 抓紧时间. “Grab Tightly Time.” It taught me discipline. Efficiency. Intentionality. It’s a constant voice in my ear to move, to excel, to get shit done. Make dreams happen. 

And it has. 

But I don’t know if I think about Time in this way anymore. 

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